Anxious

today, is not my very happy day, cos my job will hv some problem with money..
shit..
now make me have lot of problem for the entire years with the money problem..
n til now i hv no idea how to fixed it...
damn it!!!
yesterday i imeediately send msg to bryant..cos he hv some offer to me with his dyuelife..
it just make me wanna earn more money...
money money money..
all is bout money..
i hv lot of burden in my shoulder..
if i lost this jobs..
that will be really shit~!!!!!!!

Shocked

omg, how this things can happen to me always..
i oledi have no money now oso kena cheated..
so bad luck la..

now i hv hlb loan, car loan la...cimb loan la..
credit card la..
haiz..really stupid bastard!!!
how dare they can do all these stuff to me le..
stupid one la..!!!

Release

Today is my grandmum funeral day, we wake up early in the morning at 6am as v just sleep at nite around 3am.
Very tired for sure.
Finally every done, my grandmum rest at peace...
Hope she can find our grandpa in heaven...peace..

Today i finally receive an email from mike...very happy and release..
Happy cos he didnt forget me and he said miss me so much too, release cos i know that he is save but just busy..ohhh...release..

Same situation, miss him so much...miss miss miss him...

Today i have a relax mood but still need to go to the funeral ceremonies...
Mike still haven reply my email...i m very worry bout him since he didnt send any msg back after he go back to france..

I miss him so much...much much more..
I m planning go to Sri petaling to ask for the dancing class...either skating or dance class..need to consider first..
Lot of things can do wen i m alone..
dance la..., work la...,but stil miss him every single second..
unstoppable..
unstoppable...damn!!

Grandmum

I just come back from the funeral ceromony. All our families member are there.
V all together have crying, laughing, joking...even it is a funeral...
My grandmum look so peace.....she must be very happy in heaven..
After all these procedures need to run through....v all very tired..
Somemore v cant even wash our hairs bout 2 days...for goodness sake..
Smelly~~~~

tired day~~

All of my family member are rushing to the hospital today, n i need to stay at shop here. I receive a phone cal from my mum with crying tone. So sad. My beloved grandmum just gone like that, but with peace...
I just cant believe this just happen in one day...heavy heart~~`

Mike, u miss me onot..?
i m terribly miss u so much, as all this thing happen to me..
i wan to split to you but i cant..i just cant..
i know that u are not really trust me...me either..
but i love u so much...it take time to built up a trust..i know..
time is everythings.....

Today is the fifth day u go back to france oledi..
i m missing u terribly..miss ur heart, kisses, hugs, touch,,,everythings~~~
love you..

heart story

Today is a hard day. My beloved grandmum had just passed away. My heart are very heavy but i need to be strong as i know she go by peace..
There is another thing which made me so sad is..i hv a very serious argue with my sister. She is so over with her attitude. Far over!!. and i sorribly slap her just like that.
Tough day.
I miss him so much today, don know why but i just miss him.
some time i m thinking i need some one to rely on..but that person is definitely not him at this stage..
haiz...life~~~